maybe I spend too much money on weed
maybe self sabotage is second nature to me
maybe I do get jealous
maybe I do act out for attention
maybe I am too impulsive
does that really make me so bad?
I’d like to think it doesn’t
I’d like to think different
maybe it’s the shadow part of spirituality
that we all do it to some degree
maybe it’s that the human body can only store so many emotions
can only hold space for so much loneliness or pain
before it starts to break
before it starts to use dysfunctional tools to cope
maybe that’s the point of the whole game,
to figure out the right tools and try to enjoy it.
maybe this is what people mean when they talk about breaking the cycle of karma