maybe I spend too much money on weed

maybe self sabotage is second nature to me

maybe I do get jealous

maybe I do act out for attention

maybe I am too impulsive

does that really make me so bad?

I’d like to think it doesn’t

I’d like to think different

maybe it’s the shadow part of spirituality

that we all do it to some degree

maybe it’s that the human body can only store so many emotions

can only hold space for so much loneliness or pain

before it starts to break

before it starts to use dysfunctional tools to cope

maybe that’s the point of the whole game,

to figure out the right tools and try to enjoy it.

maybe this is what people mean when they talk about breaking the cycle of karma