Human connection

If there is one thing, I’ve learned in my almost 26 years of life it’s that a breakup with a friend or family member can hurt just as bad as a breakup with a partner. Those connections are placed on our heart just as importantly and those lost connects are hard on your heart, regardless […]

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Twisted up feelings

My emotions will be the death of me, I’m certain.  I feel everything in extremes.  Some say it’s a gift, but some days it feels like a curse.  I can spend months trying to describe it to the ones I love.  Or years trying to gain the same respect as someone who feels a little […]

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The post where I’m proud of myself

Greetings Earthlings, I hope each and every human reading this is having a wonderful day/night/etc. I’ve been really stuck in my feelings lately, scaling my way out of it. I always joke about my emotions being like the ocean and sometimes I have tsunamis……I feel like lately has been a tsunami, but I’m going to […]

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Maybe

maybe I spend too much money on weed maybe self sabotage is second nature to me maybe I do get jealous maybe I do act out for attention maybe I am too impulsive does that really make me so bad? I’d like to think it doesn’t I’d like to think different maybe it’s the shadow […]

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Flipping the mood

Greetings friends, I’ve had a hard time finding motivation today. I know a part of it is universal, we’re all feeling a little stuck in our feelings lately I think. I feel for people like me, days like that are just a little more challenging than the norm. I keep contemplating what all these heavy […]

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I Matter

I matter. I know it sounds silly but I want to scream it at the top of my lungs. I matter. Maybe it’s a cry for help, attention seeking. Maybe it’s the reminder to myself that I’m worth more than what the little voice in my head tells me when it’s late and I’m alone. […]

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Saturday Thoughts

This isn’t where I thought I would be at almost 26.  It’s easy to say I just didn’t think I would live this long. Which isn’t untrue. But at the very least I thought I would be a few years into a PhD or working on some big project for some big company. Not mentally […]

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Journey to Authentic Self

I was flipping through the Upanishads earlier when I came across the discussion/story of the two different self’s. The ego self and the Self (capital S self/authentic self). One of the highlights from my skimming is the “ego gropes in darkness, while the Self lives in light” and obviously there’s a lot more in the […]

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thoughts and things on mental illness

Hi friends and welcome back to another mental breakdown with yours truly. I say that half joking/half serious, with no real reason to cause concern. With the bipolar, borderline, and trauma in my brain, having mental breakdowns are not an unfamiliar state of mind for me. It doesn’t mean I enjoy them or seek them […]

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